First entry, to my first ever blog. Lately I’ve been in a bad place relationship wise. Sadly, that’s even speaking too highly, these aren’t even relationships. I’ve decided to talk about it through this blog. Firstly, my name is Shannon. I’m a 20 year old female student. And when it comes to love, I’m scorned. 

My early life seemed normal to me, I had a fantastic family. My mother, father and three sisters. We lived an upper-class life style in large houses and given everything we ever asked for. To support this lavish lifestyle my father worked long hard hours from 6am to 9pm at night, while my moth stayed home with my sisters and I.

To everyone it seemed like a perfectly little family but under the surface I was cracking, little did my family know I was being raped regularly by my mother’s sister’s son. It had started from when I was very young, so young I can’t recall the exact age. At my age now I only have small flashes and glimpses, I guess it might be my mind trying to protect me from the trauma. The clearest memory I have was when it all started. 

We were all playing in out cubby house, it was two level and I was on the top level while my elder sister was down stairs. We were playing house, while my sister cooked down stairs I talked with him. He asked me a question that still haunts me to this day “Shannon, do you know what sex is?” He said to me. I shook my head and innocently said I didn’t. I was so young, I didn’t understand. He offered to show me, I replied with a ‘Yes’ that is the biggest regret of my life. For many years following I felt dirty, scared and ashamed. He told me I couldn’t tell anyone, that I would get in big trouble if mummy and daddy found out. Young and naive, I believed his lies. I felt so disgusting and dirty, I used to scrub my skin until it bled. I would see his eyes wonder to my sisters, I didn’t want them to hurt like he hurt me. I wanted to protect them from this punishment so I would pull him away from them and let him abuse me. 

The guilt I had intoxicated my mind filling me with anger and rage. I felt guilty to everyone, my sisters for doing things while they were near by. Too my parents for not telling them and too myself for doing nothing too stop it. This continued for all of my childhood. It stopped somewhere between the ages of 8-10, I guess he feared puberty where I may become pregnant. At the age of 12 years old I was hysterical one evening and my parents didn’t understand why, I sat the, down and told them everything, begging them not too be mad. This was when the real fire works began in my life.

First entry, to my first ever blog. Lately I’ve been in a bad place relationship wise. Sadly, that’s even speaking too highly, these aren’t even relationships. I’ve decided to talk about it through this blog. Firstly, my name is Shannon. I’m a 20 year old female student. And when it comes to love, I’m scorned.

My early life seemed normal to me, I had a fantastic family. My mother, father and three sisters. We lived an upper-class life style in large houses and given everything we ever asked for. To support this lavish lifestyle my father worked long hard hours from 6am to 9pm at night, while my moth stayed home with my sisters and I.

To everyone it seemed like a perfectly little family but under the surface I was cracking, little did my family know I was being raped regularly by my mother’s sister’s son. It had started from when I was very young, so young I can’t recall the exact age. At my age now I only have small flashes and glimpses, I guess it might be my mind trying to protect me from the trauma. The clearest memory I have was when it all started.

We were all playing in out cubby house, it was two level and I was on the top level while my elder sister was down stairs. We were playing house, while my sister cooked down stairs I talked with him. He asked me a question that still haunts me to this day “Shannon, do you know what sex is?” He said to me. I shook my head and innocently said I didn’t. I was so young, I didn’t understand. He offered to show me, I replied with a ‘Yes’ that is the biggest regret of my life. For many years following I felt dirty, scared and ashamed. He told me I couldn’t tell anyone, that I would get in big trouble if mummy and daddy found out. Young and naive, I believed his lies. I felt so disgusting and dirty, I used to scrub my skin until it bled. I would see his eyes wonder to my sisters, I didn’t want them to hurt like he hurt me. I wanted to protect them from this punishment so I would pull him away from them and let him abuse me.

The guilt I had intoxicated my mind filling me with anger and rage. I felt guilty to everyone, my sisters for doing things while they were near by. Too my parents for not telling them and too myself for doing nothing too stop it. This continued for all of my childhood. It stopped somewhere between the ages of 8-10, I guess he feared puberty where I may become pregnant. At the age of 12 years old I was hysterical one evening and my parents didn’t understand why, I sat the, down and told them everything, begging them not too be mad. This was when the real fire works began in my life.

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